I want to say something like "the truth that you pick is a lower form of truth, and a higher form of knowledge".

Or, "An optional truth is , lower form of reality and a higher form of knowledge". sort of like my idea of how prostitutes Function. I saw a movie quote that stuck with me "The way In , doesn't have to be the way out. Were on a living breathing plant,interacting with other living breathing organism ( excluding a purely evolutionary understanding cause i don't understand it ) Maybe showing love to women is the equivalent of trying to eat with my ass. It Just don't go that way. Being nice is trying to shit with my mouth. Your going to have a bad time. Still i would question why is paying women for purely sex so effective, (exuding cost) It also more Much more effective for meeting people and connecting then meeting someone in a 3rd space. I'm sure normal women would like to get paid for there time , but it seems like their payment is something else, i don't know ifs submission and Fealty , Money and status, Or Drama and passionate sex either way i haven't seen any of the above work for maintaining a long term relationship. Last November i wrote that i want to have perfect love for a female for 2 months then die a quick painless death after seeing cool drug fuels visions and leave a corpse undisturbed to and dissolve in the woods, I still want that, it will be my death amen