Thinkinking loud,

Fucking my self by saying how i feel.

Never did it before so heres to mistakes. Lord please let me have a painless end. I just want to lose conscious before the pain come. Wake up in a new place or realm. Maybe its the conscious moments before death that give the most bang for the buck. The idea that Valhalla isn't the place after you die , but the moment seeing the axe swing for your skull in a grimy Mud pit.Maybe I mean i can understand seizures. You lie there and shake as your eyes rolling to the back of your head. Seems like there is moments for thought. But totally concking out. The feeling of waking up after surgery. I don't feels like cheating, or leaving something on the table. I could never Jump but Ive thought about drowning. Lung feeling with fire and salt water. Sinking and watching the light dance on the surface. Could be nice.

We need more tables tired of having shit laying on the floor. Pretty excited though got most of the stuff to began. And enough funding to carry me to the end. So well see. Of course there are side quest. Ancillary mission. I'm hoping that writing might give some clarity on but I'm ready to process with the big stuff.

Bless up

• Some idiot Named Su